| life has changed all too much.things we only saw in movies has become
the reality of not only nightmares but true life.we have become one
with the things that we hated for so long.if you actually begin
thinking about it .. most of us never really thought heartache like
this ever existed. sure we heard about kids killing other kids.but,
kids killing theirselves? that was merely a faint thought. im not even
sure it was a thought. it was a .. upsetting idea.our parents were so
against the music that they listened to. religion was life.'ah ..
religion.the most hypocritical thing that has ever existed.it is only
quite unbareable to think of.it is sickening with disguist.it brings
upon a profound chill across the body as your thoughts begin to
race&you ponder over millions of things.i want to throw this all
onto a canvas&watch it burn.friends who you had known for years
suddenly became your enemy.other people not understanding who you
are&what you'v become so they feel that they should stone you with
words&emotions that they believe hurt you, or atleast will
adventually, when its all a failed attempt upon deaf ears.moving has
made me into the boy i want to be.the boy who was inside,
chained&locked for the longest time.whether or not you people like
it, i am much more satisfied.i am the boy who i have been for years.i
commended some of the best friends life could bring.consummation has
also swallowed my friendship with the friends that i thought would be
my best.im not sure what im rambling about or even why.i dont expect
you to take your precious little time to read this.all of you that do
though .. i hope that you feel what i feel or atleast see what i see.
die young&save yourself.
btw, dont take this as an attempt of me being "emo" or whatever the
fuck you want to call it.its merely a .. person who feels as if he
should put how he feels on an internet blog that so many people take
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| so..yeh. been awhile since iv updated myself. things'r good. new
school, single now. school's been good so far. havent had much time to
sit around much..been workin out and seein friends. comment?
 picture of me shirtless
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| Oh wow.. i updated. new picture. comment.
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| hey today was alright studyhall was so funy Mrs.Scharber was so frustrated with us it lol it lookd like she was goin to cry the sub in Mrs.Ross's class was some old dude and he was..weird lol he kept tellin us about all this stupid stuf and sayin that he met santa inperson and that he caught skunks in cages and sold them when he wasa little kid lol im out tho lateR |
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| nothin realy happend today or yesterday eagles lost :( today was boring had detention today for lafing -_- had Mrs.Scharber for a sub in studyhall..wow that was weird lol she kept staring at me and such and giving me hateish looks lol im gona go tho lateR |
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